Saturday, November 28, 2009
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What should I really feel? I really don't get it. I was so depressed when I saw my card despite with the obvious evidence that my average went up-- by two points. When I was still in school, I was like thinking that my average went down. Knowing the fact that I got low scores on my Periodical Exam. But still, I was unsatisfied.
I want higher grades. Simply because I want higher average. WHY? Because they got higher than I. :( IDK. I can't accept it !May be I had put my head that high na that's why a simple defeat is unbearable for me. But should I call it defeat? No. I'm not in the position. I should blame myself. But why should I, when I got higher than what I expected? Because they got higher. Ugh. What a stupid reason!
Shouldn't i be happy because I know in myself that 2nd quarter was really a least one. What did I do in class? Read HP and sleep. But still, I had made it higher. What's the problem? *sigh*
Yeah, they always say it's more painful when you fall from a higher place. That what was happened to me.?
Hee. I don't understand myself! IDK! There's something to rejoice with actually. But I let it ate me. The whole part of me that I even forgot about that thing.
Jel, look at the brighter side. You haven't expected for it yet it came. You have to be satisfied with that. You still got 3rd and 4th quarter. You have to strive harder. Good luck.
*piece of advice from me. Have to go on. I can make it!!!
:)
Friday, November 20, 2009
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I was so busy these days that I even got no time to post single update. But even if the scenario was that, I really really wanted to post something here. No, NOT something, actually A LOT! IDK. I really want sharing all these thru writing that's why I really I want to be a writer. I may not be that good, pero I can improve it pa naman diba?
Anyway, I don't know where to begin but I guess I have to with the 1.)finished retreat.
Everytime we were having our recollection, I had been wishing for the retreat na. 'Coz I know that it is something that's more intimate than the recollection. May be kasi, you'll have it for not just one day.
Okay, Lemme start making kwento about it. When it was coming closer and closer, the excitement on us dug deeper and deeper in our hearts. The best thing happened before it was the announcements who will our roommates be. It was right after the exam and oh, everyone was screaming and shouting bast you'll feel the excitement with the every scream, and with the every bang of the chairs and everything. Til we got down, still the curve line in our faces could be seen. WOOT.
We started out trip at about 8 o'clock? And FUNNY thing, we got flat tyre when we were at Sablan. So we all went down from the bus and had a picture taking at the road. HAHAHA. What a TRIP!
We arrived there around 1 o'clock. They instructed us and gave they keys of our rooms. After putting out bags in our rooms, we all went to the refectory to have the lunch and oH.. May nakasabay kami, from St. Paul Apparri. (I was wishing na Balayan na lang sama. SO that I could meet Armaine na. Haha)
The very RULE in there is to observe SILENCE. But we were all talkative that the refectory was surrounded with our murmurs. Haay.
One thing more, there's this sister there. Named VICKY. WE super hate her for she's a monster. JK. But seems she hates us so much and even told us that we're the "worst group who went there." That hurts of course. She was even telling lies to the other sections. How i envy them. They were all in the House B away from the sisters. :((
The best parts for me were the Reading of letters and the bonfire..
* Reading the words, WE LOVE YOU and WE CARE made my tears dropped so fast. I don't often hear them say that thing eh. Actually it was the first I felt that my family loves me even if I was like that. (And now, my tears are at the corner of my eyes na. Hehe.)
Bonfire..
What made me cry there so much was because of the unsaid words I hoped I' hear. IDK but it hurt me. I was OA yes for me to cry because of it but of course, who wouldn't be. It was a silent grief kasi I haven't told anyone about it. Haay.. EXPECT HOPE whichever, both will make you cry.
OKAY enough. Gonna make kwento again next time. Not in the mood. :)
