Friday, January 22, 2010
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POEM for MATH. :)As high as the mountain
as deep as the ocean
there lies this dream,
though on its blur
there lies this hope,
i know it's lure
Stuck on this road,
don't know where to go
Stuck with this feeling,
that's my woe
Get rid of this,
i know it's hard
Yet I do try my best,
but i come out bad
I love you, that's what i feel
that's true, that's for real
it hurts you don't feel the same
coz i'm alone and you are vain
I long for you,
it's you what i often ask
I need you in this dark-hard task
Excruciating pain is in inner me
Are you blind that you cannot see?
With just one step i take,
many hands grip
Don't understand,
why you don't want me to whip
I've planted things now
I want to reap
It's just what I want to read from your lip
Please be with me in this ramble curved
Love, care act, I don't need your word
Giving up, at times is what on my mind
But I do believe, hole is just around and
that's what I need to find
:)
Sunday, January 17, 2010
-DOES FAILURE LOVE ME SO MUCH?
I remember myself saying, "Please let's skip January. I am super afraid," last December 2009. Swear. I
really didn't want to reach this month. Especially with the day,
13. (I used to love this number but suddenly I had this phobia with it. There's a call with it, I just forgot.)
However, when January came, the feeling of anxiety, and fright vanished. I don't know. I was no longer afraid nor worried. The nightmare I had last December suddenly went out of my head. Maybe because I was already expecting that I couldn't make it.. that I already knew the result.. that I would surely accept it easily.
BUT it turned out NOT. I cried. I fell. I was hurt. Yes, definitely, it turned out that I could not accept it. But hell, who would not feel the same way? When others think that you could do it? When others think that you're good at it? When others expect too much from you? I guess, that's even
worse than failing your own self. RIGHT?
I FAILED my FRIENDS
I FAILED my PARENTS
and
I FAILED MYSELF
I cried, because for the
second time I failed in this matter. In this stuff wherein I think I'm good at. And again, am I really good at this? Or I'm just really trying to push myself into something I know I will never excel at? It hurts a lot. Really.
And honestly, it's my first time to think of my parents when talking about this.(I guess) I cried so hard because of them. You know the feeling wherein you already had the chance to make them proud pf you, to repay all their hardships for you, BUT you just FAILED. Man! Swear, that was the main reason why I cried! I have been a bad daughter, I know that. It would have been my ticket on saying my apology, but darn. It flew away.
Yes, another FAILURE! Am I for this???(cant put pictures of the letter. My memory card is missing. :<)
Friday, January 1, 2010
-Bye 2009 :) Hey 2010. :D
Laughing out loud at the middle
Crying silently at the corner
Smiling everytime I saw your face
Pouting when thing went out of grace
I was busy, that was so superb!
Rushing though was the best part of it
Been in there and in here, up and down
Almost everyweek those things we did
Tired everytime I went home
Still, no regret as I went to bed
Unique HAPPINESS is what it surely gave
I know it will NEVER be in grave
Antics at school made me laugh so hard
Though at times it made me even shed tears
But still all of these, no more no less
will be in my heart and forever be treasured
SALESIANS, I owe these to all of you!
You really are the BEST part of this year
'Coz of you 2009 has been filled with colors
Green, Red, okay let's put blue
But swear, 2009 will forever be my YELLOW year
In our room everything is there
Braniacs, pasaway, artists and okrayers
Another are the Bluetooth-ers plus the sleeping beauties
When our class is in deep silence
You guys never forget to give a shit joke that would let us all laugh
There are so MANY things I'd really want to tell you
But I guess I'd just make it shorter
As what you and I have already said
YOU GUYS ARE REALLY THE BEST!
To all of those who joined me in my 2009
A thankful heart is what I could really offer
Memoirs of laughter and tears, funny moments and trips
Nothing I could really ask for more
Except for one thing, JOIN ME AGAIN in my 2010. :)
Well, you may say that all of these are pretty ordinary because this is what we call
life. Well, we have different views and especially experience. I might experience all these stuff in the years to come but definitely
NOT with the same people anymore. That has been my 2009.. It's the BEST YEAR so far not counting the wraths our country had experienced. Thanks God for all of these. :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
PS. Yey. Done with my last post for 2009. I started one yesterday but I wasn't able to finish it. So here's a simple poem. POEM FOR 2009. :)
