Saturday, November 28, 2009
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What should I really feel? I really don't get it. I was so depressed when I saw my card despite with the obvious evidence that my average went up-- by two points. When I was still in school, I was like thinking that my average went down. Knowing the fact that I got low scores on my Periodical Exam. But still, I was unsatisfied.
I want higher grades. Simply because I want higher average. WHY? Because they got higher than I. :( IDK. I can't accept it !May be I had put my head that high na that's why a simple defeat is unbearable for me. But should I call it defeat? No. I'm not in the position. I should blame myself. But why should I, when I got higher than what I expected? Because they got higher. Ugh. What a stupid reason!
Shouldn't i be happy because I know in myself that 2nd quarter was really a least one. What did I do in class? Read HP and sleep. But still, I had made it higher. What's the problem? *sigh*
Yeah, they always say it's more painful when you fall from a higher place. That what was happened to me.?
Hee. I don't understand myself! IDK! There's something to rejoice with actually. But I let it ate me. The whole part of me that I even forgot about that thing.
Jel, look at the brighter side. You haven't expected for it yet it came. You have to be satisfied with that. You still got 3rd and 4th quarter. You have to strive harder. Good luck.
*piece of advice from me. Have to go on. I can make it!!!
:)
