Friday, December 4, 2009
-Aiming to SCRIBE on papers
Having it on my hand gave me shiver. Shiver within with the feeling of
envy. Wishing that I could see my name in there, wishing that I could read my perceptions in it.
I still remember, way back Grade 4.. I was sitting quietly, listening to what our teacher was discussing us when suddenly, a teacher peeped out from the door and excused some pupils-- and I was one of them.
I followed her downstairs, towards the AVR without any idea what we were going to do there. Then the door opened, I saw lots of pupils and students getting and their chairs and setting down on their tables. I felt goosebumps down to my toe.. It was like I was in a different world. It was like,"what's going on?" Then I heard a man saying, "who'll be on news? Go to this side. For feature writing, here.. Literary, that part."
Aah. Yeah. It was just then when I knew where I was and for it was.. Simply, for
"journalism seminar." But still, I had no any idea what journalism was all about that's why I just went at the feature section since I was on its part.
And until now, I still don't get why my teacher asked me to be in that room tackling that stuff when there were more pupils who were better than I.
My mind was opened and I started getting pen and a paper and be just at the table trying to write something. And yes, the aspiration of becoming a journalist grew in me. It was all I wanted but I didn't pursue it that much.
Then, here came the High School year.. 1st year, I was trying to be recognized in writing,unfortunately, i didn't succeed. But atleast, I was topping our English subject. And my math teacher(who happens to be the head of the INK club) often asks me why won't I join there. But swear, I treasured writing that time that I often write poems. 2nd year, oh.. it was like I was bumped into a car that time that I forgot about it and turned my focus into computers. But somehow, I was still thankful with ma'am Lanie that she still gave me a chance to attend a seminar at St. Paul College, Pasig, 2nd year vacation summer. Of course, I didn't let it slip from my hands, however I wasn't able to continue it on my 3rd year in H.s because of low self-esteem. Though I believe that somehow, I'm good in writing, I still have no confidence to let others read stuffs I write. It's because I'm afraid of their comments.
4th year.. I was already determined to be part of the school paper that i didn't have two minds to join the screening, HOWEVER,I didn't pass! :( May be because what I did was news not feature! :(
And now, i'm really planning of getting it on College and pursue it more. What I just hate is that, I'm just about to climb one step yet, but many hand hands are gripping me down already. Yes, job after college is what's on on my mind too, but there's no harm in trying right? LUCK is what is needed that's why I won't let any words bring me down. I feel envy whenever i read our school paper.. And now,I assure myself that soon, I'd read my own page, not may be on a school paper anymore but at least on a magazine or a newspaper already.
Experience doesn't always matter but Determination to make a change just to reach something DOES.
