My last blog post was certainly about Toni G and be being her fan wherein I elaborated why I love her and how I learned that there's something like her exists in showbiz, plus my rant that I never saw her yet in person and my hope that someday that would happen.

Okay. Last last last week ata yun, I was lurking on ASAP thread and there I read that ASAPXV will be in Baguio, no date yet. ASAP will be in Baguio. Ohmen. There's a possibility that I would be able to see Tin in person.. but oops, there's also a possibility that I wouldn't. Kasi pag mga ganun not all stars go sa mga places na yan db. Baka di siya pumunta, might be because of her schedule or something. But then, a friend of mine tweeted me that Toni would be indeed in Baguio for ASAPXV. Oh gosh,I FELT THE EXCITEMENT (and I am still feeling it right now) ATLAST I makikita ko na siya!! AT LAST! Alam mo yun? Alam mo naman feeling ng naeexcite and natutuwa diba? Basta that's what I feel.

Kung may moment, gosh. Nahihiya ako. Nakakahiya. Nahihiya ako. Promise. Pero ayoko mag expect. Yun, masaya ako. :))

I can't find any other celebrity to fall in love with other than Toni Gonzaga. Yes, indeed, that's true. I used to and even tried to love other celebrities I find okay but with Toni Gonzaga, she's really different that my love for her is really heaven-like.

Yes, I am a fan of hers, could already be a die-hard fan. I never saw her in person, I never met her, seems like I am already in despair when it comes to that but I still hope and wish that someday, I would be able to stand right before here feeling so starstruck and all. I wanna feel what my co-fans everytime they have an encounter with Toni Gonzaga.

A simple glimpse of how I learned to love her. It was year 2005, I was Grade five then. I have my bestfriend as a Kapuso (before. The networks war had really gotten in the hearts of viewers those days) She kept on talking about Toni Gonzaga. Toni Gonzaga. And I was just like, "Aaaah. Sino ba yun?" Then she'd just repeat what she had said from the top. Lol. "Basta si Toni Gonzaga. Ang ganda niya, ang galing niyang kumanta and magpatawa. Ang haba ng hair niya, ang ganda. Noong November nga, nagportray siya as Sadako. Ang ganda niya."
Then, one night, I saw the Cosmo mag of my sister, it was Feb 2005 ish and there, the Cover Girl was Toni Gonzaga and I was just like, "So eto si Toni Gonzaga? Ang ganda niya." I still remember it right, how many times I stared on her pictures and how many times I read the article. It was then I started seeing her on ABS-CBN shows. Then, my addiction over her started.

You know the feeling of being a fan not trying to miss any appearance of hers in any show that you'd even cancel any meetings or lakads you have just to watch her. Oh gosh. It was so unbelievable how Toni turned me into that. There were times that I'd stay infront if the TV the whole day just to catch her, or I would even watch all of the talk shows thinking that she'd be featured. Haha. She was just so in demand in issues those days, from her transfer to her new shows to the men linked to her. Okay. She got a lot.

Not just into watching her shows, but also I turned into a girl that would save her allowance just to buy anything that featured Toni G, from notebooks to magazines, to her albums, and even to her movies. That's how I was addicted to her. Well, I may be thought that was the worse and most addicting I could even do for her as a fan.

2008 came, I got more addicted to her(actually, Im getting more and more addicted to her each day) I started going into forums about her and this led me in joining a fansclub. Yeah, hell right? Too far from them yet I join. What do you expect in fansclub? It would turn you crazier than what you used to. I don't regret any actually, at least by this I was able to know and meet new people and soon became my friends. :) One thing i'm grateful with Toni. She gave me friends. Friends wherein I could be me when it comes to her.

Who's Toni Gonzaga by the way? She's a great host, a very entertaining comedian, a soon to be drama actress, crush ng Bayan and of course a singer. She has proven a lot of her talents, from TV to the big screens, concerts here and abroad and albums. But she's more than that. Yes, she indeed beautiful, but I hear them say, she has just a typical beauty of Pilipina and that. So what. But I often hear others say that she's different. She has different beauty and glamor among the other stars of today. Lemme tell you why.

She has fair-skin, check. And add that long perfect skinny legs that she has, it just makes everyone drool out of it. But really, aside from what we often see her from her, physically and her talents, what makes me love her more is her innate beauty, the Christian values that she lives in. I rarely see celebrities in that kind way of life. She doesn't want fight. Proven many times already. Though she already has that heavy feelings towards someone, she never lets herself burst into anger and bitterness especially on National TV. The Mariel issue with her? Well, she was fed up. She really was. Who wouldn't anyway? Good thing about her is that even if she was the one who was really really hurt, she never had anything against Mariel. Never said anything against her by means of dragging her into what really happened. In fact, she was just really in what she was feeling that time, and there she merely hurting. :(

She never hold grudges. She really never does. I don't have to mention any names in here, but the mere fact that she forgives and just wants to have a peaceful way of living is already enough for this.

She's humble enough. Truly. That's what her co-workers often say. She has reached the top of success already yet she stays as simple as she was before, she stays the Toni Gonzaga that we learned to love.

She's a family oriented person. She loves so much her family. That's a no doubt thing. She's very obedient. There's the respect and of course the love she really has for her family.

And above all, she's a Christ-centered person. I've been an avid fan of hers and I've read a lot of times posts from her which she talks about GOd and how he puts everything into God's hands and time. What she does is for God. How she clings to God when she got problems and all. That's what a person really should admire.

Toni Gonzaga has been here in the business already for a long time,but I've just known her for five years. I was after her when she was still on that top and jeans attire, when she was still in-linked with lots of hunky men and the like, but yeah, as year passed by, you could see how she had changed. Change in aspects like in the way she dresses on TV already, mostly now in dress. Well, not really an issue, after all it's for the show, it just suits the show she's in.

Anyway, many say that she's that suplada. I, myself never had an encounter with her yet (though I really hope I could have one) Pero according to her fans really, ganoon lang talaga siya. Tahimik pero kalog on cam. Oo naman, sino ba mag-aakala na tahimik ka kung kalog ka naman on cam right? Well, she just really got the wit and the sense of humor on cam. Kaso, pag off cam kasi mahiyain siya. Sabi na din ng mga nkakasama niya. Mahiyain siya kapag new faces. Lahat naman ganyan eh, or should I say may mga ganyan lang talaga eh. Di pare-pareho ang mga tao.

I just love what one of the oldies in Tin's fans club said "Si Toni bihira magsabi ng I love you, pero pag siya nag-smile at sinabi iyan, alam mong sincere." She's not outspoken but indeed she's one of the best people I've known who works on TV. Well, one of the FEW people I've known who works on TV.

Balang araw, hope I could meet her. At pag ako naging journalist, isa siya sa mga gusto kong interviewhin. I admire her so much that I'm putting her into my inspiration list. She's just one of a kind. She's the best. She's a woman of substance. She's a woman for keeps. :)

It's not how about you fall, it's about you stand up again
-Toni Gonzaga

Labels: Addiction, Celebrity, Loves, Toni Gonzaga

It's been really long since the last time I got into here. Well actually, the last time I wanted to post here was last Tuesday, been reading his poems in his blogs so I just thought of dropping by here but when I was in the middle of my post, things just came in to ruin everything.

I was just saying how much I preferred Tumblr over blogspot the past months. Well, admit it, it's a way cooler that fact that you can just post pictures, gif as simple as that with those typos plus sentiments. But, apparently, blogspot is way more relaxing than Tumblr. I like blogspot's ambiance more especially for downtimes, at least you wont really have a dashboard that would be sooo noisy and you wouldnt see pictures that sometimes way out of line. There are really those that are sooo annoying, having really a focus on their followers and notes. Fvck. Again, this must be a cliche already but Blogging is made to EXPRESS and not to IMPRESS. With the way the people I follow, they are just so really *rolleyes. Maybe my fault that I just hit the follow button before without looking at their blogs. So disgusting.

I just love this place for filling in what just I feel. Just a type then end. I dont care about the notes, about the followers, it's just about what I go through, what I feel, it's all about ME. No less no more. No pretension, no making paarte and all.

By the way, I'm about to write another story (and hope I could finish it) it's title would be One.Last.Try. Definitely it would be about someone who's trying to come up for something but can't just. Not really into details much, but I'm already having its ending.

Labels: personal, rant, story, that's just it, tumblr

It's been a long time since I posted here. It has been like 7 months already. Well, i got my way out to Tumblr. Honestly, it got more features than blogspot. The pictures, the notes, the reblog thing... I don't really have to enumerate all. But seriously, I MISSED BLOGSPOT even if I enjoyed posting this and that in Tumblr.

I feel a different aura here. It's really a different one. It's more simple. People post here to EXPRESS what they feel and NOT TO IMPRESS others. This is a lot cooler than Tumblr I guess. Jk.

My last post here was still about me being in highschool who worry so much of getting in College. But, now, I'm already on it. I am now in College. And this sucks even more.

Anyway, just wanted to visit this somehow. So, it's good to be in here again! Til next time. :)

Best word, most used word/s... Well, no other than, "PRESSURED AKO!!!"
Grabe. OWVER. Kaya naman super memorable na ng movie'ng KimmyDora samen. Well, thanks to Dora for that tone. Haha. :D

Okay, to start with. We had been busy the past days. Super busy! >:) Kasi naman, we have many html's to work on tapos dagdag pa ang thesis at play. Jusko. Can we die? Ay teka, actually, di naman busy. Pressured lang. Kasi ewan ko. Tama naman si ma'am Tere. Di niya kami nakikitang pressured kasi during free time, wala. tambay mode lang sa may kubo, chika chika and everything. Bakit ba nila nasabing pressured kami? (The teachers ah. Hehe.) Kasi, basically, we were not thinking of that pressure pressure. It was just brought out nung nadiscuss na ni ma'm na 5 subjects ang makiki join sa oral defense and take not. 50 points of the final exam will be from the defense. Gawd! Dun, dun na nagsimula ang pressure. And actually, si ma'am nga unang gumamit ng word na iyan.

Okay, trip ko kasi mag share. Kasi in just a few weeks, gra-graduate na kami. Gusto ko may babasahin ako after ten years. Haha. :D Diba nasabi ko na ito dati, gusto ko lahat ng gagawin namin will be posted here, kaso busy lang talaga kaya di ko masyadon nagawa.

Funny moments. Grabe, laging un na lang nasasabi. "Pressured ako! Busy ako!" Dora's style ah. Haha. Love that movie na talaga. >:) Kahit saan kami, kahit sino nakikinig. Pake namin eh sa true un. Meron pa nga ung time na ma'am was asking us about the practice in play, ang sagot namin, "ma'm, pressured kami!" (again, dora's style) di na nakaimik. well, obviously. nabadtrip xa dun. haha. :D pero di naman nagalit. Weeeet.:D

Meron pa. Jusko eto, ewan ba. Ah, noong ash wednesday ito. Kasi we had a mass nung morning, after the mass, we talked about the proejcts. jusko, daming suggestions. After that, super busy na kami sa classroom not minding the teachers who were discussing. Pake ba namin. Sige, tally jan tally dito for the thesis. Ung ibang subjects nga di na naglesson. And here's the most interesting part. Ap time ata. We were waiting for mommy Lou. Eh since feel na namin ang pressure dun, todo work na kami. Ayun... Teka, di ba pag may earthquake , ang gagawin, dduck cover and hold Aba naman, sa sobrang busy and pressured na namin, we didn't mind the earthquake drill instead we continued what we were doing. Walang pake. Haha. Kahit na lumabas na ung iba at nakitang may mga nag oobserve, wala pa din awat. Iba naman, sigaw sigaw pa jan. Jusko. Haha. Ako naman, hawak hawak ko ang papers that I was tallying eh kung hindi kinuha un ng classmate ko, malamang, naidala ko un habang bumababa kami. Haha. Ay pati pala mga CAT officers, hindi na naign alert dun, kasi nga BUSY kami. Bongga! Haha. Un na siguro and pinaka di namin sineryoso na drill. Owver. Kasi kahit nung palabas na kami na ng skul at nasa may place na kami, sige pa rin we were all talking about the thesis parin. Haha. Adik. Mygas!!

Nakakatawa lang kasi talaga pag may mga ganyang moments kahit pressured na. Un ang nakakapawi sa pressure and pagod eh. Happy ako kasi kahapon, dun talaga kami gumawa na nag focus talaga sa thesis. Na kahit busy kami at pressured na, nakuha pa talaga naming tumawa ng tumawa, Parang baliw lang. Hahaha. I love it!

Jusko lang kasi naman. Ung sa defense ay parang bagsak na kami. Haha. Sorry, di lang talaga magaling sa oral eh. Ay katuwa kanina, walang lesson the whole da. Halos lahat nakaharap sa laptop.

Oh sige, iyan na nga lang muna. Up next, play. :DD Next week na un. :DD
Pero finals muna. Jusko. Tama na pwede. Haha. Ek. Graduation na. Happiest yet saddest part of highschool life. :DDDD

What a day this is. So so so I dunno. Haha. We just had our confession last Thursday then here we go again, gossiping. The worse, the topic is just around the corner. Grabe. Haha. Pero as what they said, it is our way for her to realize and admit what she did. (She really did it)

Valentines Day. Wasn't able to post what we did yesterday last night. So here it is. :DD

It was so nice to have a group date, as in date with friends. :) Actually, the main plan was, we would go to mass all together then afterward, project-making but that's not what happened. We chose Paano na Kaya over Projects. :D

And yes, I so so love Paano na Kaya. :)When I first saw the trailer, I didn't care actually, like I didn't want to watch it either. But as time went by, I wanted to watch it. As in. That when I heard that it's already showing here, I really really asked and asked my friends to watch it. A lot of convincing stuffs done before agreeing with me. Ugh. Haha. (kasi nga, projects daw muna. Ek. lol)

I love it, coz IDK.. Well, three why's, three thoughts. That's it.

1) Why is it that in friendship, the girls are always the first ones to fall in love with their guy friends?



Diba, that's so true? Most of the time, the girl is already secretly in love with her friend, while that "friend" is busy loving other girl then he would just love his friend when he knew that his friend loves him. Haay naku.

2) Whys is it that when you love someone, you would do anything even if in the end, it hurts you?

Haay, that's how stupid love is or that's how love makes you stupid. At times, you even do things without you realizing it. You'd just wake up then slap your face trying to scold it not to do it again.


3) How weird.. Why does your past have to come back when he knows that you're already happy with someone else?

That's so makapal huh. I just hate it. They were the ones who hurt you then still have the guts to come back. Gaaah. Stupid those who would give them a second, third or whatsover chance.


Ayun lang naman. I really love the movie. :D Kakilig na mafe-feel pa talaga ang sakit. May be the ones who are secrelty inlove their friends would love and hate to watch it. Lol

"Eh gago ka pala eh. Ikaw lang naman hinihintay ko."

I do not know what made me think of blogging this one. This is an effin stupid stuff done by stupid people. Well, I definitely am stupid in here right now with this stupid why. (See, getting stupid with how I even talk here.)

Anyway, going out. Going there. That's a frigging mess. Stupid! Looking anywhere just to have a glimpse. HELL! Stupid reason to pass there. Dammit! :O

This week, it has been a doomsday! Having sweet dreams when in fact they are really nightmares. Can I just die now? Well, nevermind. Why I should I prefer to die when it's not worth dying for, anyway.

But honestly, I'm trying to kill this. this thingy inside of me. It's so so... I don't know. It cripples over me. And i hate it. I really hate it. Who wouldn't right? This is NOT HAPPENING! *How I wish! Really. Waiting for it, can I just stop this?!! HELP! WAAAAA.

And this is confidential not letting this spill from my own mouth. YEAH! I HATE IT!!!

Joanne is the name. Obviously I love pink plus green. I believe that 1 failure is not a reason to give up. :)

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